53 Summers

When you consider your place in the world, do you consider your origins? 

The chances of your birth, 

The likelihood of your fertilization and plantation inside your mother’s womb, 

The diseases you avoided, 

The dangers you escaped, 

All to bring you here to this moment. 

Have you considered how many summers you have left? 

At my age, I have 53 remaining

What will you do with your moments? 

The Value in Self-Authoring Your Life

When you find yourself looking for validation from the people around you, remember that you were wonderfully made, hand-chosen to move through this life, at this particular time, and you have everything you need to complete your task.

Your only job is to believe you are what you need. Believing is the hard part.

Let’s take a look at what you have believed about yourself to get you to this point: competent, smart, pretty, helpful, friendly, nasty, an any-means-necessary type of person. Whatever your belief system, it has acted as a compass steering you to this moment.

What if you have what you don’t want? What if you’ve received that which you dislike?

You, my friend, require new beliefs.

For the past few months, I have been re-imaging my own life. What is necessary to continue evolving and to grow in spirit and mind; knowing that what got me here, won’t get me to my desired end goal.

One of the tools I am using for proper realignment, outside of prayer, is Jordan Peterson’s Self-Authoring course. The online program is a writing party! You write about EVERYTHING. I purchased the entire suite, which includes past, present, and future authoring exercises.

Peterson is a renowned clinical psychologist. If you have followed me for any amount of time online, then you know I am very fond and familiar with Peterson’s work, having listened to over 150 hours of his online lectures, podcast, and interviews.

That which I seek, I know, will not come to me in old patterns of thinking and being. I believe in the transcendence of the human mind to contend with an unknown future. So, what do you believe?

Below is an exercise from the Future authoring program. For more information on the course, click here:

The Ideal Future: Complete Summary

Close your eyes. Daydream, if you can, and imagine your ideal future:

• Who do you want to be?

• What do you want to do?

• Where do you want to end up?

• Why do you want these things?

• How do you plan to achieve your goals?

• When will you put your plans into action?

Write about the ideal future that you have just imagined for 15 minutes. Write continuously and try not to stop while you are writing. Don't worry about spelling or grammar. You will have an opportunity to fix your mistakes later.

Dream while you write, and don't stop. Write at least until the 15 minutes have passed. Be ambitious. Imagine a life that you would regard as honourable, exciting, productive, creative and decent.

Remember, you are writing only for yourself. Choose goals that you want to pursue for your own private reasons, not because someone else thinks that those goals are important. You don't want to live someone else's life. Include your deepest thoughts and feelings about all your personal goals.

Fall in Love With Your Life

It took a while for me to get here,

For me to fall in love with my life.

It took a divorce,

It took the loss of a meaningful relationship,

It took friends going absent,

It took the loss of a child,

It took 12,775 sunrises; I am 32 years old,

It took several close calls,

It took me trying on identities that did not belong to me,

Bad men,

Late nights,

Good times,

Wine,

The cancer diagnosis of my mother,

A new child,

I am here and so in love.

Life, thank you for loving me back.

 

- @earlinagreen

Re-imagination Is The Birthplace for Vision and Change

What happens when we create space for ourselves to learn and grow? Who do we become? What self-imposed barriers break down? What is realized? Reconciled? Reorganized and re-imagined? 

Here is a stirring quote by Susan C. Young on re-imagination:

Re-imagination is the birthplace for vision and change. Your imagination is one of the most valuable talents you have and deserves your full attention. Imagining how you want to live your life is one thing, but connecting your imagination to a visual representation will give you exactly the traction you need to make it a reality.

I am fascinated with this subject because I believe that people can be fully self-actualized in their lifetime. Self-actualization is something that we must aspire to, to have an impact in the world. However, we will first need a vision for our lives, and if the life we have is not where we want them to be, then we must be brave enough to re-imagine them.

The problem is we have too little imagination and schedules that leave no room for the process. We pack our days and nights with things to do and do not have the capacity for designing a future of our liking.

I am having these conversations with my mother, who was recently diagnosed with breast cancer. She clings to an unproductive version of her faith and habits that put her future in jeopardy.

There is a better way to live. 

Joel Pearson of the University of New South Wales and one of the authors of a novel study, to be published in a forthcoming issue of Psychological Science, stated “if we stop for a moment and think about it, our ability to imagine the world around us in the absence of stimulation from that world is perhaps even more amazing.” Pearson goes on to say, mental imagery “allows us to, in a sense, run through a dress rehearsal in our mind’s eye.” 

In the absence of stimulation – or noise – I see a world transformed, a cure for cancer, people with the capacity to explore and seek out difference with an appreciation for what is before them. I imagine a world in which we don’t dismiss our negative appetites but perform a deep inventory to understand and reconcile what lies within with who we want to become.

I imagine a world that is not afraid to live in the truth of their story, unashamed, and unhindered.  

The world I speak of will require a reprioritization of time and attention — intentional living in the direction of our highest dreams.

Creating An Audiobook

 
audiobook earlina green

The process of creating an audiobook is rewarding and stressful. I spent the first few days preparing to record my first audiobook by making sure my closet did not produce an echo. I was determined to finish taping my book, The Beginner’s Guide To Finding Your Brave in a few weeks even though I heard the process could take months.

For a better part of the first few weeks, I was up to my eyeballs in clothing and hangers. I had to find a place for the laundry basket because it would be my mic stand. I also knew that I would be in the closet for hours so I had to have a place for snacks and my favorite scented candle. The scene was spectacular!

By the end of the day, my small closet was turned into a sound booth paradise.

On the first day, I sat hunched over on the floor to record. I later regretted the decision due to back pains from being in one position for so long.

The first week went by quickly. I imagined how Ta-Nehisi Coates might have felt recording In Between the World and Me or the way Brene Brown may have postured about as she taped Daring Greatly.

I made the decision up front to record the book how I spoke, meaning I talked in a conversational manner. I am from Texas so some of my words have a "southern-twang" to them. However, I was better off being myself than to put on an act and have to explain myself later when I was in front of people during book signings. The Introduction was the easy part. I wrote to the point, short sentences, and found my cadence.

The following weeks proved to be a lesson in willpower and perseverance. I made the crazy decision to edit on my laptop as I went. Which meant I would stop every few sentences to correct an “r” or entire phrase that did not communicate emotion.

It’s all in the voice inflection.

While working in the sales industry I would encourage my sales reps to smile when they spoke on the phone with prospects. The joke around the industry is to dial and smile. For me, smiling put me in a more confident mood to close.

By the end of the second month, I was tired but close to the finish line. The process took longer than I expected, but I was reminded that completing the audio version of my book would allow communities that struggle with literacy the opportunity to learn how to find their brave. That’s worth it.

You can check out the audiobook of my work The Beginner’s Guide to Finding Your Brave here. Thanks for listening. Let me know what you think (info@earlinagreen.com).